22/1/2018 0 Comments BLOG #9: PURPOSEFUL MYSTERY: 2018I never would have thought that I would have ended 2017 the way I did.
No way in heaven above was I ever planning on a breakup, a trip alone to the mainland, being a volunteer at Falls Festival or to live in my parents garage. Yet, some those things were pivotal moments for me. I want my 2018 to be full of unexpected turns. It is hard sometimes but it forces me to think creatively, which I believe shapes me into a more understanding and knowledgable person. Last year while I was travelling I had a very small amount of money to live off yet I did it! I survived it and it taught me a lot about the illusion of financial security. That experience showed me that I can live an exciting and full life without money, so that makes saving cash feel super possible to someone who use to spend ALL her dollars. If it is saving money, travelling more or whatever other personal resolutions you may have on a list, they are all possible to achieve. Even so, I don't feel like listing a whole heap of to-do’s on my list, rather I have one sentence that I feel covers all my resolutions in one go. My New Years Resolution is this, to embrace anything that comes my way. Truth be told, it has already begun and benefits have started to surface. I don't want to picture what this year will look like for me in list form. I really just feel the need to let go of an expectation to live up to and instead, just live; freely and wholesomely. To say ‘yes’ more and not live in fear of failure. I know everyone says, “This is my year”, but chicks and dudes, every day is your day so as sick as it is to hold the big picture, pay attention to each day because the little steps is what builds momentum for the big ones. Talking about steps, I am currently at a slight stand still. I feel like at most I am moving in a short shuffle motion but I guess I am still going somewhere, even if it takes longer than I originally wanted. I don’t know when I am going to be able to move to the mainland or what that whole idea looks like for me but I will continue to do what I know to do and be patient. I know that Coffs Harbour is a place I will spend time in and I look forward to that so much but I feel like something is starting to brew here in Tasmania and I guess I am waiting it out to discover what that actually is. It is quite amazing living in a purposeful mystery. To have $8 to my name and still live like I have nothing to be worried about. I feel complete within myself and I know finances isn’t my identity or that money can't determine my happiness. It is crazy to not know when money will flow into my hands. I don’t have any income yet I feel more stable and secure than ever. I am the happiest I have been in a long time and I feel like this whole season of not knowing what is around the corner is shaping me. There is purpose in this ‘broke ass’ time and there is hope that I’ll be blessed one day soon. Here is to 2018, let it be a year of self expression, purposeful mystery, personal revelation and pivotal moments.
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